Phillip Schofield reveals secret fertility battle with wife Stephanie

‘It seemed being a mother might cruelly elude her’: Phillip Schofield reveals secret fertility struggles with wife Stephanie before the ‘miraculous’ birth of their first daughter Molly

Phillip Schofield has revealed that he and his wife Stephanie secretly struggled to conceive their first daughter Molly.

The presenter, 58, admitted that for a moment he feared his wife would be ‘cruelly eluded’ of the prospect of motherhood, having been warned by doctors it could ‘prove difficult’ to conceive.

Phillip and Stephanie went onto welcome their ‘miraculous’ daughter Molly, now 27, in 1994, with their second child Ruby, 24, born three years later.

Candid: Phillip Schofield has revealed that he and his wife Stephanie secretly struggled to conceive their first daughter Molly (pictured on Lorraine on Thursday)

Phillip has spoken about his 27-year marriage to Stephanie is his newly-published memoir Life’s What You Make It, which also documents his decision to publicly come out as gay in February.

The This Morning star admitted that ‘no one could ever love him more than she did,’ and having a family seemed inevitable after they married in 1993. 

Phillip explained: ‘Steph has said in her own words that she was born to be a mum, and that is certainly true. As well as all her other accomplishments, our two girls couldn’t have hoped for a better mum. 

Hard: The presenter admitted for a moment he feared his wife would be ‘cruelly eluded’ of motherhood before welcoming daughters Molly, 27, and Ruby, 24 (pictured in November 2018)

‘She literally never puts a foot wrong, whereas I’m always the one apologising and saying, ”Sorry, I could have handled that better.” 

‘However, at first it seemed that being a mother might cruelly elude her. Her doctor had said that having children may not be that straightforward. He said, ”Are you with the man you want to marry? If not, get rid of him and find Mr Right, because time is running out.”

‘Thankfully, she stuck with me. If having children was going to prove difficult, then we’d better start trying even harder. 

‘In one of the greatest miracles of our lives, Molly proved remarkably easy to make.’

Speaking out: Phillip has spoken about his family in his newly-published memoir Life’s What You Make It (pictured with his daughters in November 2001)

Keeping going: He said: ‘Thankfully, she stuck with me. If having children was going to prove difficult, then we’d better start trying even harder’ (Phil and Steph pictured in November 2019)

Phillip and Stephanie went onto be ‘touched by another miracle’ as they welcomed their second child Ruby several years later.

In his memoir the star also divulges the mental turmoil he faced before making the decision to publicly come out, and stressed that more than anything he wanted to avoid hurting his family by speaking out.

He added: ‘This was all so painful for Molly, because she had to deal with the cruelty on a managerial level and the fall-​out at home on a father/daughter level. 

‘It was upsetting her to see her dad in so much pain and be powerless to make it stop. The hugs I got from all three of my girls were vital.’

Challenging: In his memoir the star also divulges the mental turmoil he faced before making the decision to publicly come out

Phillip also spoke on Thursday’s Lorraine about his decision to come out, crediting his wife and children for supporting him so much through this time.

He said: ‘If I thought about what the potential cost would be, it just plunged me further into crisis.

‘One difficult evening when I was talking it all through with Steph, I said that I felt like I’d fallen into the crack between two lives.

‘How could I possibly align the two? How could I understand the implications? I could see no way forward and no way back. It all seemed so huge and so frightening.

‘She continually reassured me that, no matter what, she unconditionally loved me, and so did the girls.’

Proud: He has credited his wife and children for supporting him so much through the tumultuous time (Phil is pictured with his daughters in 2009)

‘I’ve no secrets’: Full transcript from Phillip Schofield’s interview with Holly Willoughby on This Morning

‘It’s funny because, everyone I’ve spoken to, you, have all been so supportive and so loving and caring.

‘And my entire family to a person have grabbed us and said it’s OK, it’s OK, we love you, we’re proud of you.

‘And every person I tell it gets a little lighter and a little lighter but at the same time, you know, I have made this decision which is essential for me and essential for my head and that’s principally the decision why I’ve done this.

‘Of course I’m really very aware that Steph and the girls are at home watching this and we’re all together, and we spent a lot of time together, we spend a lot of time together obviously.

‘And they’ve been supporting us as we got to this moment and we all knew it was coming.

A pillar of support: TV presenter Phillip Schofield on ITV’s This Morning talking with Holly Willoughby today about his announcement that he is gay

‘So, yeah, I mean I feel a little lighter, but I’m also very aware, there’s no question that it causes pain and it causes upset. I’ve no secrets. We’ve never had any secrets. Tough, it is tough, but this is not something that’s happened quickly. I’ve had to deal with this in my head for quite some time.

‘We’ve gone through this together and we’ve been honest and we’ve been open. Steph, as I said, I can’t write in any statement what I feel about that women.

‘She is amazing, she’s incredible. There’s no one in my life who would have supported me the way, as a wife, as the way she supported me. She’s astonishing, literally astonishing.

‘It’s a good question (why now). You know this has been bothering me for a very long time and I think everybody does these things at their own speed, at their own time, when they feel the time is right.

‘I’ve no secrets’: Full transcript from Phillip Schofield’s interview with Holly Willoughby on This Morning

‘And there’s no question that it has in recent times consumed my head and has become an issue in my head.

‘And so I got to the stage where I thought we sit here every day, and I’m over there and some amazingly brave incredible person is sitting here, and I’m listening to their story and thinking ‘oh my God, you’re so brave, oh my God, you’re so brave’.

‘And I’m thinking ”I have to be that person, I have to be that person”. I think all you can be in your life is honest with yourself. I was getting to the point where I knew I wasn’t honest with myself, I was getting to the point where I didn’t like myself very much because I wasn’t being honest with myself.

‘And so, when is the right time, when is the right time to do it? And as a family, it’s the right time.

‘There are people around the world, there are people in this country, there will be people watching this, and we always say talk to someone, and believe me, believe me, when we say that and we do say that a lot on this show, you must talk to someone, you must talk to someone, i have and it’s helped a lot.

‘And it’s brought me back – i mentioned those dark places in the statement – talking to people does bring you back. And in some cases talking to people saves you. You have to discuss it, with my friends, with my family, with my wife, we’ve talked it through – and we have to talk it through.

‘This is my decision, this is absolutely my decision. It was something I knew that I had to do. And I don’t know what the world will be like now – I don’t know how this will be taken, or what people will think.

He said: ‘But at the same time I will sit here and say actually, I’m proud of myself today. And I am proud of myself today’

‘But would I say is that yes, I am very conscious of the hurt, and so my overriding emotion with my family is obviously going to be guilt, because I do feel guilty that this can’t be anything other than a painful process for them.

‘But at the same time I will sit here and say actually, I’m proud of myself today. And I am proud of myself today. It wasn’t easy but they (my daughters) were, they are so amazing in their love and support.

‘I sat them down and I told them and they jumped up and they gave me a hug, a big hug, a long hug, and then they hugged Steph and they said it’s OK, we’ll be OK, we’ll always be a family, always us four, is what we always call ourselves. We’ll always be that.

‘It was the same with my mum, my mum is watching this today. She’s been on the phone this morning – hope you’re OK. I went down to see her, she’s down in Cornwall, and I went down to see her. And I told her and she said ‘oh, OK, well, I don’t care’ – and that’s the same with everyone.

‘No I don’t think so (thinking about future relationships) – I’m not thinking there. I’m doing each day at a time now, this has always been a slow process and there is no fast process after this.

‘This was the big day and this was the day that I knew everything was pointing towards and I could not have don’t it if it hadn’t been you. So afterwards I don’t know, but no, there’s no one, I’m not rushing out to anybody.’

His side of the story: Phillip was open and honest during the appearance in which he chatted to his good friend

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