LOSING a baby is cruel enough.
But, for Nadine Griffiths she has been left with a permanent reminder of that loss – after her miscarriage left her completely bald.
The 29-year-old said her long hair started to fall out suddenly, after doctors confirmed she'd lost her baby.
Within six weeks the mum-of-two was completely bald – after stress caused alopecia.
The teaching assistant from Abercynon, South Wales, said she had no idea she was pregnant until she started to bleed in August 2012.
"It was a double shock," she said.
"I was at home and started bleeding. I was in a lot of pain and didn't know what was going on.
"I went to hospital and did a pregnancy test – I was pregnant, and quite surprised but pleased.
"Forty-eight hours later the medics told me I had actually miscarried. It was horrendous."
Nadine was early on in her pregnancy but said it was "very traumatic".
"I was anaemic and I also started having seizures too, because of the stress," she added.
Over the next two weeks, Nadine said her hair began to fall out.
I remember coming home from work and my clothes were just absolutely covered in my malting hair, it was horrible
"It started with just a small patch at first," she said.
"It just continued from there. Six weeks later most of it was gone.
"I remember coming home from work and my clothes were just absolutely covered in my malting hair, it was horrible."
"Someone put a sticker on my head and when they pulled it off a load of hair came away with it leaving a bald patch. Naturally they were horrified."
For Nadine, who loved her long locks, the loss of her hair has just compounded her trauma.
She said her alopecia has left her feeling embarrassed and said she's constantly asked if she has cancer.
She said: "It's been horrendous, it's taken my femininity away from me.
"I feel guilty feeling hard done by as I know there are people out there with cancer who've had chemotherapy and lost their hair.
"It's completely changed my life. I went from fun and easy going to uptight, emotional, nervy and anxious about everything.
"I wear a wig all day now. My partner doesn't really talk to me about the hair loss and says he still loves me no matter what my hair looks like.
"I don't feel like I'm myself anymore though and I just want some sort of normality back.
"I was the shell of who I once was.
"The old me had completely gone and I don't think it's ever really come back."
After being diagnosed with alopecia in 2013, Nadine's hair did slowly begin to grow back.
But in the last few months, she her condition has relapsed and her hair began to fall out again.
Her sons, who are four and six years old, regularly ask their mum why she's lost her hair.
"It came back around the beginning of May and by the end of that month it had got really bad," she said.
"My hair had become covered in bald patches.
"The lowest point has been when I was getting into the shower one morning. As the water was hitting my head clumps of hair were just falling out.
"By the end of May I was struggling to cover up the patches and was pretty much completely bald.
"I went out in public with no hair or with headscarves.
"I've been wearing a wig since August.
"Although it's not ideal it makes me feel like people aren't staring at me anymore.
"It makes me feel feminine again and gives me that bit of confidence I need to go out and face the world.
"Sometimes the boy's ask me what's wrong and why I've lost my hair but it's just so hard to explain it all to them."
Nadine is currently raising money on GoFundMe to pay for the cost of a new wig.
For support or information on miscarriage or baby loss visit the charity Tommy's website here.
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