VICKY Pattison has revealed she's much happier as a size 12 than when she was miserable and stripping off for lads mags.
The telly favourite, 34, shot on MTV's Geordie Shore in 2011 and has gone on to become one of the show's biggest successes.
Since being in the spotlight, Vicky's dress size has fluctuated from a size six to 16.
But now the star, who is currently wears a 10 to 12, is happy to admit she's proud of her "squishy butt" and "lumps and bumps".
Speaking exclusively to The Sun Online about her latest edit with underwear brand Pour Moi, Vicky said: "So now I am a 34-year-old woman in probably the healthiest and happiest relationship I've ever had.
"Feeling the best I've ever had with my body, and by no means being the smallest, but I know what happiness is, and I know what health is."
During her 20s, the Northern lass did a number of lads mag shoots, and admitted that she was never actually comfortable in her own skin doing them.
She confessed: "I must have looked super confident, really at ease with my body but the fact is it couldn't have been further from the truth, I was like fighting this complete internal struggle.
"Most women have been there, like it's learning to love the skin you're in and it is lovely to be able to sort of come full circle.
"To work on this campaign with Pour Moi, rather than sort of sitting there and hating my body and hating every second of the shoot and sucking my tummy in, and you know being really snappy because I wasn't comfortable.
"I think as women we give ourselves such a hard time and I'm so over it. I think we're all over it. So this range is about inclusivity."
The reality star also confessed that she used to starve herself before a shoot to help try and make her better.
Vicky said: "I was just in such an unhealthy place with in terms of food and all the rest of it.
"I was just young and, and trapped in a world that I thought I'd be happier if I was thinner. I thought in order to be considered attractive, to be validated, I had to be a certain size.
"Like my happiness was intrinsically linked to a number on a scale. Your 20s are tough for every woman in the industry, I was in exacerbated the way I felt.
"Like I am so much kinder to myself having gone through everything I've gone through, I realised that none of that made me happy.
"I became really thin and it didn't make me happier. It didn't bring me peace. It certainly didn't make men love me, like it wasn't anything it was I built it up in my head."
Although Vicky said that it's a "constant battle to learn to love what you see in the mirror", she finally feels like she's in a good place at the moment.
She added: "Whether that be, post lockdown, whether that be because I'm 34 and I'm just kind of really content… I think I spent so long hating myself.
"I've realised this is a futile waste of time. It just robbed me of so many experiences and life was fraught. It's meant to be celebrated."
Not only that Vicky's boyfriend Ercan Ramadan – who she has been dating since 2019 – is also a "positive influence" on how she sees herself.
The star said: "He's definitely been instrumental in this very liberated and accepting version of me that we see today, so I'm really grateful to him for that.
"He is a very good egg."
The Pour Moi x Vicky Pattison Edit is available from 14th October exclusively online at www.pourmoi.co.uk
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